But if you find yourself questioning if you are gay, here are 12 women on the moment that they knew they were. I sat in the ER for eight hours waiting for treatment and none of my family showed up to hold my hand. One night as I was lying in bed, I had an epiphany. By the time I was at the bottom of the box, I ran out of male action figures and was left with two beautiful blue female aliens. I messed around with another woman at 13, and put the words together around I reacted to her in a way that felt right—the way I had always envisioned a first kiss to be. I always had feelings for her and little did I know, she had those same feelings. She and I had been inseparable for more than two years.